March 2010
1 post
“Never Settle For Second Best”
November 2009
1 post
Dance like no one is watching
Dancing is my tool of escaping reality into a world that is filled with over flowing emotions and inner beauty. I dance because it lets me express my feelings, whether it’s pain, sorrow, anger, or happiness. When I’m performing, people don’t see me as Julie, they see a whole new person. A given chance to being someone else other than myself. When I perform on stage, dance allows...
August 2009
5 posts
#1 Question everyone has been Babbling about.
Are you guys back on?! The answer is No. We are just close friends, there’s nothing wrong/strange to keep a friendship going after a relationship. I know what I want and he knows well to respect that. Both of us had decided to keep our friendship alive, but even I started thinking that we’ve outdone ourselves by hanging out a little toooo much. Is it a mistake?? could be… and...
“My walls are up because the last time I pulled them down, someone came along and...”
– (via jumanan) (via jaeee)
I'm glad we had this talk, now I know that I'm...
NO FOR THE HUNDRETH TIME!
Your typical love story is when guy meets girl and girl meets guy and something sparks and they fall in love. It shouldn’t have to be forced, it should be something real. What’s the fucking point of getting married when you’re not in love?! You basically set yourself up for a fucking sad life and later on you’re just gunna make everyone in your life sad and miserable...
July 2009
23 posts
Moe: So you wanna chill with us still later?
Me: Yeah sure.
Me: What time?
Moe: 1-2
Moe: Are you sure you won't collapse again?!
Me: Don't worry about it as long as I'm with you girls, you can take care of me!
Me: Just like Michelle! haha
health issues.
So I woke up this morning and I was still drowsy from the Nyquil I took last night but I forced myself to look good for work. Running late as I was, I ran and stogged at the same time. I know I’m retarded but it gets me up!! So when I got to work, my heart pounding from the adrenaline and I guess I was already lightheaded. I walked over to the register to clock in and everything just rushed...
I feel pressured. I feel insecured. I feel alone. I feel hopeless. I feel scared. I feel lost. I feel numb. I FEEL STUCK! What to do, I don’t know! I just want to scream it out. I’m holding this secret for so long and I need help now! Fuck, I’m gunna cry myself to sleep. I have work at 10 tomorrow morning. Nyquil will help me sleep like a baby tonight, hopefully I won’t...
I NEED HELP
About this time 2 years ago, I blamed myself for _____ ________. And for losing you. People made jokes about me and that’s what got me going. It totally took over me and now I’m in too deeep. I seriously don’t know who to go to, to talk to about this. One time led to more times and soon it became a chore. It was so simple, but now I’m worried, what will happen to me if I...
So I wonder how long its been since we’ve last spoke to each other now, I hope things are going well and I really do miss you. I’ve been keeping myself busy with other people just so you don’t think I’m lonely. I am happy, a lot happier now but I wish you were still a part of the reason I’m happy. You probably hate me now or writing me angry love notes and wishing...
Is it just me or my life just seems to be getting so much easier and happier now? At work, my manager keeps complimentiing me on duties. Customers have been extra friendly, and I’m getting great hours! Dana was saying how she’ll give me an evaluation before my 5 months because I’m doing so well. Definitely great news coming from her. At home is a little bit more at ease because...
6795.) It's possible that I like you again, but I...
6557.) I love you as much as i scream at you and...
(via blogsecret)
So maybe there is a huge misunderstanding between us two. I’m sorry for jumping the gun on you, I should’ve known better. it just seems that lately, you’ve been putting up posts like you’re disappointed or you’re just angry. My sgf was giving me weird vibes, what was I suppose to assume? Idk, I’m sorry for putting you through this, I’m a jerk, I know,...
Ultimatum.
I’ve been hit with an ultimatum by my parents which left me speechless. I was so disappointed in myself because I’ve been so busy having fun that I hadn’t notice all the pain I’ve caused my parents. They do know I sneak out and NOW they know I do smoke too. I’m such a bad kid. I’m just a teen trying to have fun, no intentions to hurt them on the way. But since...
James Morrison| One Last Chance
This is kinda how...
“The average girl goes through heartbreak at least once in her lifetime and today I went through mine. I woke up this morning and all that came to mind is this wonderful person that was once in my life. As I was alone in the cold, I watched the sunrise, the grass wet with dew, and the disturbing silence as I walked to class feeling the burning stares from familiar faces. As I sat in my seat,...
FUCKMYLIFE! I guess reality is really knocking on my door really soon because I’m turning 18, but who knew that it comes with decisions that can either make me or break me deals. I don’t know what to do, what right choices to make, and most of all what to think. I wish it was just forced on me, having it being my choice makes it that much more difficult. Would you think bad of me if I...
I woke up this morning already hella cranky because of this devastating heat rush but not only that but to my cell phone being jacked up as well. The screen was all disoriented and it was useless, so I grabbed my bag and walked out to my phone holder’s building and bought a new one for $173. :\ there goes money towards my Arizona/San Diego/LA trip :( Mama said she’ll do most of the...
hellogoodbye..
I’m sorry I hardly update this thing but I do have a lot in mind tonight. Mainly the reason why I can’t sleep and it’s about 4:40 in the morning. Last night was an intresting night, only because I had a fresh look and I haven’t seen anyone in such a long time. AA, S, and M picked me up around 10:30. I swear it’s like my parents know that I sneak out but they...
i hate that whenever i see you i can't let myself...
(via truthbox)
i still think about you. i know i said “goodbye,” and deleted your number from my phone permanently, but i’m still daydreaming that you would, one day, show up at my front door with your lovely hugs and a sincere apology.
. . .I truly didn't mean to hurt you. But please...
One thing that I hate about myself is the lack of ability to speak my mind. I keep so much to myself now-a-days and it’s beginning to build in me. It’s struggling because all I want to do these days is be a couch potato, read my books, isolate myself from my friends, searching and then running out of excuses to not leave the house, and it’s all happening too quickly. I...