I’m sorry I hardly update this thing but I do have a lot in mind tonight. Mainly the reason why I can’t sleep and it’s about 4:40 in the morning. Last night was an intresting night, only because I had a fresh look and I haven’t seen anyone in such a long time. AA, S, and M picked me up around 10:30. I swear it’s like my parents know that I sneak out but they don’t even say anything anymore! (it’s true I talked to my mom :/) Sgf told me to be careful and stay safe because she feels like she’s responsible for me now, I guess she says that because. .  well M isn’t around anymore to do that for me, nonetheless it shouldn’t matter to me anymore. I apreciate her for loving me the way she does. Friends like that comes around let say…  never. Anyway, I came to Eidref’s already aware of the chances in bumping into M but I wasn’t going to let that stop me from seeing all of the friendly faces that I’ve missed so much. I’m not going to lie, it was a bit nerve racking. I thought it was nice for him to have the common courtesy to greet me with a simple hello, or in his words, “What you can’t say hi?” hah, it’s so like him. Not that it’s a bad thing. It was comforting to know that he’s doing well, so it seems. I felt so loose last night after having a few shots of Grey Goose, I knew I needed it because I was so tense from the anticipation of seeing my fellow graduates/peers, but mainly because of M. It has been two full weeks now? It’s funny because my sgf and I were talking about him the other day and how long it has felt. It seemed like a month ago. TL thought so too and she hangs out with me everyday!

Anyway enough about M, I had the best time yesterday! I know I said I didn’t want to party,drink,and blaze; but get over it, it’s summer and I only have a month and a few weeks left till school starts in fall! I have to get all this reckless behavior out of my system before I can start settling down and hitting more books then I do now. I don’t do the negative things everyday,once a week,once a month, it’s more like once every longwhile. So don’t worry about my image, I’ve got it under control. AA and I pregame in her boyfriends car and they were nice enough to buy us chasers hahaha. I still hate alchohal it’s so disgusting!

When I got to see JF it was so lovely, I’ve missed her so much throughout the past weeks. Luckily I’ll get to see her tomorrow so we can play Catch Up. :) I had a chance to mingle with bff LP, she updated me about her most recent news about K and it was shocking news to me! After so many years, they’re finally talking again. It’s remarkable how time heals. Slowly those memories lie deep down us and as soon as we find a new replacement, a new love; then those silly memories become shit; and we shit it out of our system. haha

I can’t wait til Thursday night! :)