15
Jul
I woke up this morning already hella cranky because of this devastating heat rush but not only that but to my cell phone being jacked up as well. The screen was all disoriented and it was useless, so I grabbed my bag and walked out to my phone holder’s building and bought a new one for $173. :\ there goes money towards my Arizona/San Diego/LA trip :( Mama said she’ll do most of the coverages for me so it’s not too bad. My papa bought me a new laptop and I’m just so enthralled with all these new toys I’m receiving haha, it seems like my life is finally turning around for once.
This is definitely a great change. Mission Peak was a lot easier than I thought it was today. I’ve been avoiding it because I was deathly afraid that I wouldn’t make it up anymore due to my lungs. But to my surprise it was such a breeze! The sun was already setting and most of the hikers were making their way down and my friends and I were just getting started. We reached the third bench and called it quits because my friend TT threw up. hahaha failed. On our way down we met these girls that attend Ohlone College and they advised me not to go there. They said that Ohlone tries to keep their students there as long as they can to pay for the school and some of the classes are equivalent to UC classes. It’s a great deal that I’m not, even though it would’ve been nice to continue dancing in college. All in all I was satisfied by the city lights and the cool breeze, definitely worth the long hike!
I’ve realized something today that just makes me want to go out and do amazing things, leave imprints on peoples hearts, and live my life to the fullest.I received a text from PS this afternoon and he said it was urgent that he talks to me right away! So of course I’d be concern if he was OK, he told me that two of his homegirls were raped and killed at a club. Another childhood friend of his was shot at a bar. And the whole time he thought of me, I was confused by this because I don’t know what I could do for him and why he would think of me. But I can’t imagine having one of my close friends being killed through a tragic accident or homicides! Basically I told him that time will heal the wounds and he can’t blame himself for their tragedy. Even though it was PS fault that the girls changed plans to go clubbing due to him flaking on their plans. He has to remember their most cherish-able memories together and what those people meant to him.It’ll be hard but that’s life. I wish I could tell M that I’m sorry for being so reckless with his feelings and just tell him that I appreciate him for ever being a part of my life. It is hard and I hate that things have to be this way. It’s killing me just as much. I want to live my life to the fullest; live in no regrets, be spontaneous, be adventurous, and be satisfied with where life takes me.
