Your typical love story is when guy meets girl and girl meets guy and something sparks and they fall in love. It shouldn’t have to be forced, it should be something real. What’s the fucking point of getting married when you’re not in love?! You basically set yourself up for a fucking sad life and later on you’re just gunna make everyone in your life sad and miserable because that’s the fucking feeling you’ll be getting yourself. FOR THE HUNDRETH TIME NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO… AM I NOT CLEAR ENOUGH.. DO I NEED TO SAY IT IN ALL DIFFERENT LANGUAGES SO YOU’LL GET IT?!?!?!?! I couldn’t believe how I sat there and ate my dinner and you were babbling on about my future plans and how everything will supposedly fall into place, how much easier things will be for me, how I’m helping and how you’re so fucking excited! WELL YIPPPIE! SUCK MY FUCKING PUSSY, I’M SO ANGRY! I kept looking at my dad and he’s on my side.. partly. He apoligized for putting me through this, and when he said that I just wanted to ball my eyes out. How can you deal with this when your Grandma wants you to do it too. THEY JUST DONT UNDERSTAND! HOW HARD LIFE WILL BE FOR ME! Going through this WILL make me the saddest girl in the entire world. It’s not worth it, I know it’s not. But the sad thing is, I know my mom wants me to do it sooo badly. But she doesn’t understand how young I am and how much more to life I want to live. This will ruin it! I’ll be worth nothing.. COMPLETELY NOTHING!I FEEL SO PRESSURED. It just makes me angrier because everyone notice that I’ve been acting completely different for a few weeks now and they fucking ask me why…  WELL THINK ABOUT THE FUCKING PROBLEM YOU PUT ON ME! Oh it’s your decision. .  blah blah blah BULLSHIT. It’s like you’re not even gunna let me make my own decisions. I’m a fucking adult in a month and by far this was/is the hardest decision I had/have to make and I’VE CAME TO A CONCLUSION ALREADYY!! I SAID NO. Let me live my life the way I want to. Please.. and you ask me why I’m sad, why I’m smoking, why I’m partying. It’s to get away from my problems just for the night, it might be lame but how else am I gunna stay fucking sane. I hate my life.